Waiting and waiting

I just heard that our application has been approved. Of course there is another person interested in Kira and her application has been approved, too. I don't know how they will decide which one of us will get the dog. All I know is that I have (stupidly) allowed myself to get too attached and now, if I don't get her, I will go through that heartbreak all over again. What the hell was I thinking, looking at another dog so soon after Ziggy? So, now I feel like crap. And I want to cry. I just want this thing to be over. Either let me know if we have her or tell me we don't. I am so frickin' depressed (and after feeling so excited yesterday).