Kira Revisited

The hub got home this afternoon and I was SO glad to see him! Suddenly the world was much brighter. I'm sure part of my deep despression was the fact that, not only was Ziggy gone, but he was too. It felt like I had lost them both. But all is well. He is home. After I told him all about Kira he suggested we go out to see her. Tonight. We called Karen and she agreed. It was a long drive out there. But Wow! Kira immediately took to H. She licked him on the face, and walked right next to him. She climbed onto the sofa behind him and snuzzled. What a sweetie. Luckily, I made a better impression on Karen this time. I was much calmer because he was there. Also, I already knew about the barking dogs and the tight quarters, so I was well prepared.

Certainly, Karen loves those dogs. And they love her, too. She really did a good job socializing them. And, clearly, she wants what is best for Kira. I asked her if she was going to be alright letting her go and she got a little teary, but said she would be ok if she knew Kira was going to the best home. I think she likes my husband a lot better than me (not that I blame her, after yesterday's performance!). Kira so readily took to him, and he brightened with her. He was ready to take her home right then and there. They connected. I loved the way she pranced along next to him when we walked her.

OK, so I admit I am very attached to her. I want her to be part of our family, our pack. I hope Karen chooses us among the several people who have expressed interest in Kira. H wants her, too. He keeps thinking he has to get up and walk Ziggy, and he says he understands what I mean when I say there is a hole that only a dog can fill. I think Kira would help us move beyond the loss of Ziggy.

There will never be another Ziggy. There will be other wonderful dogs, but never another Ziggy. I think I am should make a Ziggy memory book.

I must get some sleep, and I hope I will sleep well for the first time in over a week. Not just because we have agreed we want Kira, but more because H is home again. And if we get Kira, it will be even better. For all of us. When H got home this afternoon, every time he walked into the house with his gear, Daily was sitting on the newel post, leaning out, looking for Ziggy. Once again, it was clear. That cat didn't have to talk for us to understand what was going on. It would be good for him, too, if Kira came to us.

Enough. I must sleep. I am exhausted.